Diary: Confessional

I realized on Friday that as much as I train that I will never be able to simulate the emotional effects i inherently react to when exposed to external elements. I will never be able to simulate the Maslow effect. So, in order to do this at a certain point I will need to introduce the one variable that I will never be able to control, but I don't need to control. I just need to be exposed to that variable in order to understand my own internal Maslow effect to train to control myself. More to come.