Diary: Day 59

Today is hard tough day. Every win unlocks more work which unlocks more variables that are out of my control. There isn’t enough time in the day to win. I don’t know how to just accept that sometimes every option you have is not going to be enough to win. So, what do you do when you know you have to choose the best option knowing you are setting yourself up to fail? I know I’m not making sense. So, I’ll just cut to the chase. I’m sick and don’t know what to do to fix this. It’s depressing knowing that I keep hitting walls. So, I’ll just keep training and working for what I know I can control. Today is just a depressing day.